i haven't document hardly anything from this pregnancy. partially because if "something happened" it would be easier had i not connected with this baby. but now...just a couple weeks away from my c-setion date, i finally feel like i am going to have a baby. We set up the crib, loaded the drawers with his clothes, purchased a stroller...and most importantly gave him a name.
the name thing was big for me. we've always named the babies as soon as we found out the gender, but i didn't want to give this baby a name for fear -like i said before- it would make it harder had he not made it to delivery day.
the last nine months have been exhausting, on me and the hubby. every week it was something. i'd wake him up telling him i thought something was wrong with the baby, or call him at work telling him i was going in to get the heartbeat checked again because i was certain the baby hadn't moved in hours and even making him pull his stethoscope out to check for himself if he could detect a heartbeat. i knew that being pregnant again after delivering a stillborn (and then miscarrying 7 months later) would being emotionally draining, but it has still been a battle.
Heavenly Father has calmed my nerves on several occasions, which has kept me sane--for the most part. my doctor has taken care of me and allowed me to come in once a week since my 7th month. a lot of doctor's appointments, yes...but it has been nice to only go 6 days between wondering if all is well. even now, my heart starts racing as i walk into the doctor's office wondering if that day will be the day i hear bad news.
(at 7 months)
with that being said, we are sure excited about adding this little guy to the family. the boys remember him in their prayers and are making big plans for him! It's been 4 years since I've had a baby and 6 years since we've had a newborn in the home (c didn't come home from the hospital until 3 months). i find myself feeling like a first-time mom again needing to read up on all the baby books.
10 comments:
You are so beautiful! :)
Oh Celeste you look so beautiful! I can't wait to see the pics of this little guy! He, of course, will be so handsome! Miss you!!
Adorable! Still adorable no matter what your body goes thru... you are the cutest prego lady! You did sister, you are almost there! Oh thank goodness for prayers, peace and comfort. I can't wait to see pictures of your new little man. Oh i'm so hugging you.. all those feelings and emotions sound oh so familiar to me 5 years and 2 yrs ago. YOU DID IT!!!!
hey celeste! i have been thinking about you a lot. glad to hear that everything is going well. can't wait to hear the news that he is here! :)
Glad to hear that all is going well. And great picture, you look awesome!
so glad to hear everything is going well! excited to hear his name and see pictures :)
Best wishes with the delivery. Are you going to share the name or will we have to wait for the unveiling when we see pictures to go with it? I can't even imagine the roller coaster of the past years. You guys are an amazing family. This is a lucky little guy. Sure hope we get occasion to see you sometime soon. Take care
just checking in on you guys- you look AMAZING!!!! i am always so blown away with all you do... your crafts are so fun to look at! i saw on FB (jake's page!) the name.... GREAT name. ours is such a sweet pea- must be the name! :) good luck. thinking of you & wishing you a healthy delivery day.
melissa
I totally know how you feel. It's so hard after a loss. But we did it and our new little guy is such a blessing. Hope you have had yours!
I was thinking about you today hoping I could see all of the cute Valentine things you always do! And I need some pics of the baby!
Happy Valentines Day!
xoxoxo
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