couldn't have said it better myself...

i love this post, thanks Greta for helping me realize i'm not completely crazy!

elizabeth's day...

august 16th came and went, but we celebrated elizabeth's anniversary just being together as a family and releasing white balloons to her.  My family also released balloons in her memory.  you can see pictures from that day at the end of the video...

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finding out...

still in shock...

well, we found out the big news two weeks ago...it's a boy!  i honestly was not expecting that.  i thought for sure we had a little girl growing in there.  i've known with each of my 4 previous pregnancies what we were getting, so i thought my intuition was right once again.  could it of been that my heart desperately wanted a girl after losing elizabeth?  maybe.

as i sat there starring at the ultrasound screen i felt relieved that everything looked great and right on track.  of course, that was our main concern.  but then, as she told us it was a boy, i was confused.  i felt like i no longer knew who this little fetus was growing inside me.  knowing that we were told that this should be our last pregnancy, my heart ached that my chance having a little ballerina twirling around our house was no longer to be.

my 3 boys have been praying for another baby sister, i wondered how they would take the news.  T said he could hardly believe it and L and C are still in denial! :)  we had so many girl names...but are having a hard time picking the perfect name for this little guy!

we love this baby and are impatiently waiting it's arrival!  we know he will be a special addition to our family.